What I am currently experiencing is heartbreaking, difficult and at times nerve wracking. I normally say to myself, this too shall pass.
Today, is one of those days that I entertain negative thoughts about my condition. I was hungry and it's nearly pass lunch time. I called my better whole to check what is in for lunch and he said the "usual". I then requested if he can let one house help bring the food over to my work place or instead he'll deliver some meal from fast food chain personally.
I used the sweetest tone I have only to hear "Hanap ka na lang jan sa tabi-tabi", to which I replied "I don't have money".
He then told me to borrow from my work mates which hurt me all the more.
He used to bring me food, cook delicious meals and even wait to give me ride home. But these were during our boyfriend/girlfriend days.
I shed a couple of tears.
Lately, I am being extra sweet but most of the time i feel rejected.
Just like last night, I asked him to sleep beside me or to hug me first before going to sleep but he chose to sleep on the floor. I don't know what is wrong with him, or is it with me? I once asked him, why don't we sleep together anymore? He said it's too hot.
(buti di naging Hot --UMINIT-- ang ulo ko)!
If this is part of this so called -adjustment period, then i do hope that we will become better couple after this.
I need to widen and deepen my understanding and love unconditionally and most of all dapat no expectations.
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