Started my year not so right.

I haven't taken any time to blog about anything in particular. My last entry was in 2009 and so much has happened on the first quarter of 2010. I started my year not so right, doing things that are really against the will of God. My habitual sins has once again managed to overtake me. The enemy must have been rejoicing with my downfall. To make matters worst, i am conscious that what i did was wrong. My incomprehensible self-centered attitude and lacking in humility adds to my long list of a-must-transformed addictions. The once soulful me is now trying to find one. I am in desperate need of God's help, though i know i have made vows and promises to live a life worthy of His name yet i constantly and consistently defy His word. The life i live now is in contrast to what the Lord has commanded me. What have i done to God's love and grace?