My bestfriend and i attended the afternoon worship service. And as i was listening during our Pastor's Sermon, i was convicted by the Holy Spirit and was left deeply troubled regarding my plan to take 2 months leave without pay, avail the maternity benefit from our company and resign afterwards.
As the growing war between my heart and mind continued, i called my one and only better whole after the sermon and seek his advice. I was at peace when he said that i should have tendered my resignation a long time ago.
I then spoke with my mentor and mother at the Children's Ministry Office regarding what was troubling me and she said "Which is better, the company's benefit or God's benefit?". She then asked what my husband's take on this. I left the office relieved and at the same time assured of what God wants me to do.
I was guilty beyond reasonable doubt and ashamed of how i lacked trust on God's provision and even on my husband's capacity to provide my needs and take care of me.
I was not only partially submitting to my husband but at the same time doubting his ability as the head of the family.
Come Monday, i wrote my resignation letter and submitted it to my Manager the following day. This is a huge sacrifice for me but i am rejoicing for i cannot describe the peace i felt after officially declaring my resignation.
My Heart's Prayer
Lord, forgive me for not submitting to my husband, for doubting your power and for acting out of insecurity. Teach me to be more trusting to You and to my husband as well. Guide my walk as i go through this new journey of being a wife and helpmate to my husband. May i find favor in Your eyes Father.
This i pray through Christ my Lord,.. Amen!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Hear Ye, Hear Ye!
I just can't contain my happiness, it's like my cup runs over with joy.
I have been praying for my stock options, even listed it in one of my personal prayer requests for this week-long Prayer and Fasting.
For my stocks to be vested, i need to still be connected with our company on my fourth anniversary. All the while, i was thinking that it would be vested during my regularization or probation day but Alas!, i saw that it reflects on the very first day i started working in our company. Talk about God, knowing the desires of my heart and answered my prayer this fast.
1 John 5:14 says:
"And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:
And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him"
What do i need the money for? It would really help me and my better whole for all the expenses to be incurred during the day of my delivery, moving all my stuffs from Mega Manila to Mindanao, new born baby things plus other miscelaneous expenditures while waiting for my big due day.
I really am thankful to God for answering my prayer, even if it's still a month long away for the vesting period, i believe that God hears, God listens.
I have been praying for my stock options, even listed it in one of my personal prayer requests for this week-long Prayer and Fasting.
For my stocks to be vested, i need to still be connected with our company on my fourth anniversary. All the while, i was thinking that it would be vested during my regularization or probation day but Alas!, i saw that it reflects on the very first day i started working in our company. Talk about God, knowing the desires of my heart and answered my prayer this fast.
1 John 5:14 says:
"And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:
And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him"
What do i need the money for? It would really help me and my better whole for all the expenses to be incurred during the day of my delivery, moving all my stuffs from Mega Manila to Mindanao, new born baby things plus other miscelaneous expenditures while waiting for my big due day.
I really am thankful to God for answering my prayer, even if it's still a month long away for the vesting period, i believe that God hears, God listens.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
A Must Have!
I'm still a few months away from my expected delivery date and while joyfully and painfully waiting, i really take time to read a lot about the progress of my baby, the changes within me and of course what to prepare when expecting an additional member of our family.
Aside from the discomfort of taking pre-natal vitamins and drinking Anmum Chocolate flavor despite of being a lactose intolerant lass, i dig mostly on what my baby will be needing as new born.
Blessed enough to have an officemate who shares her expertise and experiences as a new mom through her blog site, she also ventured into baby products business.
Last November, i jotted down my Christmas wishlist and one of which is the LifeSavers Diaper/Travel Bag. It's one of her best seller and a must have for me and my better whole.
I ordered one and might have it by tomorrow through personal delivery. What do you know--the comfort and luxury of being workmates plus there is no need to pay for the shipping fee.
Here's the product specifications:
Price: Php 1,000 (with FREE changing pad and clear pouch)
Dimensions: 15” length x 12” height x 5.5” width
Features:
-Printed Canvas
-Water-resistant lining
-Five (5) outer pockets
-Six (6) inside pockets
-YKK zipper closure
-Adjustable Cotton Strap with shoulder pad
It's to die for. I love the colors, it's both chic and posh, the design, size and pocket organizers. Here's my pick:
Can't wait to finally use it, but for the mean time, i'll put stuffs that i and my baby will be needing during the day of my delivery.
For more info about the other Manila Baby Shop Products:
Manila Baby Shop: http://manilababyshop.multiply.com/
Neva's Blog Site: http://manilamommy.com/
Aside from the discomfort of taking pre-natal vitamins and drinking Anmum Chocolate flavor despite of being a lactose intolerant lass, i dig mostly on what my baby will be needing as new born.
Blessed enough to have an officemate who shares her expertise and experiences as a new mom through her blog site, she also ventured into baby products business.
Last November, i jotted down my Christmas wishlist and one of which is the LifeSavers Diaper/Travel Bag. It's one of her best seller and a must have for me and my better whole.
I ordered one and might have it by tomorrow through personal delivery. What do you know--the comfort and luxury of being workmates plus there is no need to pay for the shipping fee.
Here's the product specifications:
Price: Php 1,000 (with FREE changing pad and clear pouch)
Dimensions: 15” length x 12” height x 5.5” width
Features:
-Printed Canvas
-Water-resistant lining
-Five (5) outer pockets
-Six (6) inside pockets
-YKK zipper closure
-Adjustable Cotton Strap with shoulder pad
It's to die for. I love the colors, it's both chic and posh, the design, size and pocket organizers. Here's my pick:
Can't wait to finally use it, but for the mean time, i'll put stuffs that i and my baby will be needing during the day of my delivery.
For more info about the other Manila Baby Shop Products:
Manila Baby Shop: http://manilababyshop.multiply.com/
Neva's Blog Site: http://manilamommy.com/
Major Major Decision
As i made my vow to the Lord to be a loving help mate to my one and only, i never knew that it involved major life-changing decisions.
I still work in Manila and he is based in our home town in Mindanao, and i know that God does not favor long distance relationship specially if we have just been married for 3 months. My better whole requested me to resign from my company, sell all my beloved stuffs which i have acquired since 2007 and moved back to him. We've been away from each other since 2005 but it's totally different now that we are one and i am expecting.
I love my independence, more so the cosmopolitan lifestyle, my circle of friends here in Mega Manila and the church to which i am highly-indebted of my spiritual growth and maturity. All of these are painful to give up in the name of love.
As i ponder my options on what to become when i resign, i am faced with uncertainties, worries and doubts. But i trust the Lord with all my heart and soul, that submitting to my husband is and will always be the best for the two of us.
I am still praying for discernment of God's will and right timing to discuss things with my Manager and HR but i am also preparing my heart, my soul and my stuffs if ever i will really and finally leave.
It is my heart's desire to be granted approval to work from home with pay and file maternity leave so i can still avail my maternity benefits and afterwards tender my resignation. It would help us a lot-financially if i can still exercise my benefits since all our savings were already consumed.
Sigh! No regrets, no turning back, at a cross road but i have finally made up my mind which way to go..May the living God, hear my heart and if it is His will, so be it.
I still work in Manila and he is based in our home town in Mindanao, and i know that God does not favor long distance relationship specially if we have just been married for 3 months. My better whole requested me to resign from my company, sell all my beloved stuffs which i have acquired since 2007 and moved back to him. We've been away from each other since 2005 but it's totally different now that we are one and i am expecting.
I love my independence, more so the cosmopolitan lifestyle, my circle of friends here in Mega Manila and the church to which i am highly-indebted of my spiritual growth and maturity. All of these are painful to give up in the name of love.
As i ponder my options on what to become when i resign, i am faced with uncertainties, worries and doubts. But i trust the Lord with all my heart and soul, that submitting to my husband is and will always be the best for the two of us.
I am still praying for discernment of God's will and right timing to discuss things with my Manager and HR but i am also preparing my heart, my soul and my stuffs if ever i will really and finally leave.
It is my heart's desire to be granted approval to work from home with pay and file maternity leave so i can still avail my maternity benefits and afterwards tender my resignation. It would help us a lot-financially if i can still exercise my benefits since all our savings were already consumed.
Sigh! No regrets, no turning back, at a cross road but i have finally made up my mind which way to go..May the living God, hear my heart and if it is His will, so be it.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Highlights of my 2010
Our company recently migrated all computer software to Windows 7 program and all sites were put to default based on Hong Kong language and site thus i wasn't able to write my thoughts here.
2010 ended with a bang and i was so blessed to share the special holidays moment with my one and only.
I am thankful for the following great things that shaped and molded me as a person last 2010:
1. Engagement Party and formal entreaty between me and my husband's family
2. Spent hearts day with my fiancee at a Hot Air Balloon Festival (our first)
3. Completed the 7 weeks Pre-marital Counselling with my then fiancee
4. Spent my 25th birthday celebration at home after 9 long years and blessed enough to have my dad with us which started to missed my natal day since i was 4 years old.
5. Completed the Glorious Hope Recovery Program
6. Attended the much anticipated Secrets of the Vine Retreat
7. Completed my pledge for the Building Fund
8. Married finally to my boyfriend of 4 years and 10 months
9. Delighted by the news of expecting a baby- my precious gift from God
10.Experienced breath-taking views at Anawangin in Zambales
11.Had a great time with my family for a one week vacation here in Mega Manila
12. Above all, known my God deeper, hungered more for Intimacy with Him, favored, blessed, granted mercy, forgiveness and healing.--never ending pursuit of righteousness and holiness.
My life back in 2010 were all because of my One True God--my Abba Father..
To Him be the glory, honor, power and praise.
2010 ended with a bang and i was so blessed to share the special holidays moment with my one and only.
I am thankful for the following great things that shaped and molded me as a person last 2010:
1. Engagement Party and formal entreaty between me and my husband's family
2. Spent hearts day with my fiancee at a Hot Air Balloon Festival (our first)
3. Completed the 7 weeks Pre-marital Counselling with my then fiancee
4. Spent my 25th birthday celebration at home after 9 long years and blessed enough to have my dad with us which started to missed my natal day since i was 4 years old.
5. Completed the Glorious Hope Recovery Program
6. Attended the much anticipated Secrets of the Vine Retreat
7. Completed my pledge for the Building Fund
8. Married finally to my boyfriend of 4 years and 10 months
9. Delighted by the news of expecting a baby- my precious gift from God
10.Experienced breath-taking views at Anawangin in Zambales
11.Had a great time with my family for a one week vacation here in Mega Manila
12. Above all, known my God deeper, hungered more for Intimacy with Him, favored, blessed, granted mercy, forgiveness and healing.--never ending pursuit of righteousness and holiness.
My life back in 2010 were all because of my One True God--my Abba Father..
To Him be the glory, honor, power and praise.
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