My bestfriend and i attended the afternoon worship service. And as i was listening during our Pastor's Sermon, i was convicted by the Holy Spirit and was left deeply troubled regarding my plan to take 2 months leave without pay, avail the maternity benefit from our company and resign afterwards.
As the growing war between my heart and mind continued, i called my one and only better whole after the sermon and seek his advice. I was at peace when he said that i should have tendered my resignation a long time ago.
I then spoke with my mentor and mother at the Children's Ministry Office regarding what was troubling me and she said "Which is better, the company's benefit or God's benefit?". She then asked what my husband's take on this. I left the office relieved and at the same time assured of what God wants me to do.
I was guilty beyond reasonable doubt and ashamed of how i lacked trust on God's provision and even on my husband's capacity to provide my needs and take care of me.
I was not only partially submitting to my husband but at the same time doubting his ability as the head of the family.
Come Monday, i wrote my resignation letter and submitted it to my Manager the following day. This is a huge sacrifice for me but i am rejoicing for i cannot describe the peace i felt after officially declaring my resignation.
My Heart's Prayer
Lord, forgive me for not submitting to my husband, for doubting your power and for acting out of insecurity. Teach me to be more trusting to You and to my husband as well. Guide my walk as i go through this new journey of being a wife and helpmate to my husband. May i find favor in Your eyes Father.
This i pray through Christ my Lord,.. Amen!
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