As i made my vow to the Lord to be a loving help mate to my one and only, i never knew that it involved major life-changing decisions.
I still work in Manila and he is based in our home town in Mindanao, and i know that God does not favor long distance relationship specially if we have just been married for 3 months. My better whole requested me to resign from my company, sell all my beloved stuffs which i have acquired since 2007 and moved back to him. We've been away from each other since 2005 but it's totally different now that we are one and i am expecting.
I love my independence, more so the cosmopolitan lifestyle, my circle of friends here in Mega Manila and the church to which i am highly-indebted of my spiritual growth and maturity. All of these are painful to give up in the name of love.
As i ponder my options on what to become when i resign, i am faced with uncertainties, worries and doubts. But i trust the Lord with all my heart and soul, that submitting to my husband is and will always be the best for the two of us.
I am still praying for discernment of God's will and right timing to discuss things with my Manager and HR but i am also preparing my heart, my soul and my stuffs if ever i will really and finally leave.
It is my heart's desire to be granted approval to work from home with pay and file maternity leave so i can still avail my maternity benefits and afterwards tender my resignation. It would help us a lot-financially if i can still exercise my benefits since all our savings were already consumed.
Sigh! No regrets, no turning back, at a cross road but i have finally made up my mind which way to go..May the living God, hear my heart and if it is His will, so be it.
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