Last night was the first time I ever laid my hands on my little son Zian Seth and I regret it, but I explained to him why there is a need for spanking. (he is only 2 years old)
Zian Seth: Lord Jesus!
(hurriedly went to his dad so he can listen to Zian Seth's new words and vocab)
Me: What did you say anak?
Zian Seth: P_TA!
Me: (pahiya mode pero gulat to the max) Where did you learn that? (too late to control my hand)
Zian Seth: P_TA!
lecture to the max ang peg ng shocked na ina..... he repeatedly showered me with kisses to appease my frustration but I explained that I love him but that I didn't like what he said...
After taking his warm bath..
Me: Wear your pajamas na..
Zian Seth: kalain!.... (with talikod effect) and murmured P_TA twice!!!!
Me: ANO? ano sinabi mo?
Zian Seth: clapping his hands and said " Lord Jesus!".
*tumbling ako dun"
Zian Seth:B _TO
Me: ano nanaman yan?
Zian Seth: ToTo
Me: humay gulay.. sino sino kalaro mo???
Zian Seth: PINGOY!
Me: Aysus.. Dodo Pingoy pala.. kala ko kung ano naaaaaaaaaaaaa..
(may election jingle LSS ata si Zian Seth--di maka move on)
Parenting at its best:-)
Why I spanked him?
Proverbs 23:13 New Living Translation (©2007)
Don't fail to discipline your children. They won't die if you spank them.
my hubby Christian said --"he is so much like you.. every inch.. hahaha:-P".
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Period of Adjustment
There is no such thing as perfect person more so, perfect marriage. I knew this even before I got married. A lot of those who are close to me said that after I say "I do", the adjustment period begins. It's no use comparing who we are and what we do for each other before we tied the knot.
What I am currently experiencing is heartbreaking, difficult and at times nerve wracking. I normally say to myself, this too shall pass.
Today, is one of those days that I entertain negative thoughts about my condition. I was hungry and it's nearly pass lunch time. I called my better whole to check what is in for lunch and he said the "usual". I then requested if he can let one house help bring the food over to my work place or instead he'll deliver some meal from fast food chain personally.
I used the sweetest tone I have only to hear "Hanap ka na lang jan sa tabi-tabi", to which I replied "I don't have money".
He then told me to borrow from my work mates which hurt me all the more.
He used to bring me food, cook delicious meals and even wait to give me ride home. But these were during our boyfriend/girlfriend days.
I shed a couple of tears.
Lately, I am being extra sweet but most of the time i feel rejected.
Just like last night, I asked him to sleep beside me or to hug me first before going to sleep but he chose to sleep on the floor. I don't know what is wrong with him, or is it with me? I once asked him, why don't we sleep together anymore? He said it's too hot.
(buti di naging Hot --UMINIT-- ang ulo ko)!
If this is part of this so called -adjustment period, then i do hope that we will become better couple after this.
I need to widen and deepen my understanding and love unconditionally and most of all dapat no expectations.
Image Source: http://www.aarongifford.com/alice/reprints/adjustment.html
What I am currently experiencing is heartbreaking, difficult and at times nerve wracking. I normally say to myself, this too shall pass.
Today, is one of those days that I entertain negative thoughts about my condition. I was hungry and it's nearly pass lunch time. I called my better whole to check what is in for lunch and he said the "usual". I then requested if he can let one house help bring the food over to my work place or instead he'll deliver some meal from fast food chain personally.
I used the sweetest tone I have only to hear "Hanap ka na lang jan sa tabi-tabi", to which I replied "I don't have money".
He then told me to borrow from my work mates which hurt me all the more.
He used to bring me food, cook delicious meals and even wait to give me ride home. But these were during our boyfriend/girlfriend days.
I shed a couple of tears.
Lately, I am being extra sweet but most of the time i feel rejected.
Just like last night, I asked him to sleep beside me or to hug me first before going to sleep but he chose to sleep on the floor. I don't know what is wrong with him, or is it with me? I once asked him, why don't we sleep together anymore? He said it's too hot.
(buti di naging Hot --UMINIT-- ang ulo ko)!
If this is part of this so called -adjustment period, then i do hope that we will become better couple after this.
I need to widen and deepen my understanding and love unconditionally and most of all dapat no expectations.
Image Source: http://www.aarongifford.com/alice/reprints/adjustment.html
Thursday, May 2, 2013
One Friend Less
I am deeply saddened by your death. You are such a genuine and sincere friend. At 28, you have so much to accomplish, dreams to fulfill and desires to achieve. Such a young heart yet a brave soul. You once told me how you managed to finish your college degree. When your dad passed away, and lately your mom and now... you of all people. May the good Lord console the ones left behind. Your passing is such a tremendous loss for us -- for me. Goodbye my dear friend.. Perhaps it is the Lord's will for you to have eternal light and peace. .. till then Yan Yan!
Monday, April 29, 2013
Backseat
I took a backseat from writing about my hullabaloo. I was totally consumed of mother-and-wife duties that I was not able to update my site. A lot has happened, including the indescribable feeling of happiness and joy towards my little son to the unfamiliar territory of marital obligations. Nakakabuang! Now that I am back on track, I hope I can post about just anything whenever I am free.
Friday, January 28, 2011
I'm Convicted
My bestfriend and i attended the afternoon worship service. And as i was listening during our Pastor's Sermon, i was convicted by the Holy Spirit and was left deeply troubled regarding my plan to take 2 months leave without pay, avail the maternity benefit from our company and resign afterwards.
As the growing war between my heart and mind continued, i called my one and only better whole after the sermon and seek his advice. I was at peace when he said that i should have tendered my resignation a long time ago.
I then spoke with my mentor and mother at the Children's Ministry Office regarding what was troubling me and she said "Which is better, the company's benefit or God's benefit?". She then asked what my husband's take on this. I left the office relieved and at the same time assured of what God wants me to do.
I was guilty beyond reasonable doubt and ashamed of how i lacked trust on God's provision and even on my husband's capacity to provide my needs and take care of me.
I was not only partially submitting to my husband but at the same time doubting his ability as the head of the family.
Come Monday, i wrote my resignation letter and submitted it to my Manager the following day. This is a huge sacrifice for me but i am rejoicing for i cannot describe the peace i felt after officially declaring my resignation.
My Heart's Prayer
Lord, forgive me for not submitting to my husband, for doubting your power and for acting out of insecurity. Teach me to be more trusting to You and to my husband as well. Guide my walk as i go through this new journey of being a wife and helpmate to my husband. May i find favor in Your eyes Father.
This i pray through Christ my Lord,.. Amen!
As the growing war between my heart and mind continued, i called my one and only better whole after the sermon and seek his advice. I was at peace when he said that i should have tendered my resignation a long time ago.
I then spoke with my mentor and mother at the Children's Ministry Office regarding what was troubling me and she said "Which is better, the company's benefit or God's benefit?". She then asked what my husband's take on this. I left the office relieved and at the same time assured of what God wants me to do.
I was guilty beyond reasonable doubt and ashamed of how i lacked trust on God's provision and even on my husband's capacity to provide my needs and take care of me.
I was not only partially submitting to my husband but at the same time doubting his ability as the head of the family.
Come Monday, i wrote my resignation letter and submitted it to my Manager the following day. This is a huge sacrifice for me but i am rejoicing for i cannot describe the peace i felt after officially declaring my resignation.
My Heart's Prayer
Lord, forgive me for not submitting to my husband, for doubting your power and for acting out of insecurity. Teach me to be more trusting to You and to my husband as well. Guide my walk as i go through this new journey of being a wife and helpmate to my husband. May i find favor in Your eyes Father.
This i pray through Christ my Lord,.. Amen!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Hear Ye, Hear Ye!
I just can't contain my happiness, it's like my cup runs over with joy.
I have been praying for my stock options, even listed it in one of my personal prayer requests for this week-long Prayer and Fasting.
For my stocks to be vested, i need to still be connected with our company on my fourth anniversary. All the while, i was thinking that it would be vested during my regularization or probation day but Alas!, i saw that it reflects on the very first day i started working in our company. Talk about God, knowing the desires of my heart and answered my prayer this fast.
1 John 5:14 says:
"And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:
And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him"
What do i need the money for? It would really help me and my better whole for all the expenses to be incurred during the day of my delivery, moving all my stuffs from Mega Manila to Mindanao, new born baby things plus other miscelaneous expenditures while waiting for my big due day.
I really am thankful to God for answering my prayer, even if it's still a month long away for the vesting period, i believe that God hears, God listens.
I have been praying for my stock options, even listed it in one of my personal prayer requests for this week-long Prayer and Fasting.
For my stocks to be vested, i need to still be connected with our company on my fourth anniversary. All the while, i was thinking that it would be vested during my regularization or probation day but Alas!, i saw that it reflects on the very first day i started working in our company. Talk about God, knowing the desires of my heart and answered my prayer this fast.
1 John 5:14 says:
"And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:
And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him"
What do i need the money for? It would really help me and my better whole for all the expenses to be incurred during the day of my delivery, moving all my stuffs from Mega Manila to Mindanao, new born baby things plus other miscelaneous expenditures while waiting for my big due day.
I really am thankful to God for answering my prayer, even if it's still a month long away for the vesting period, i believe that God hears, God listens.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
A Must Have!
I'm still a few months away from my expected delivery date and while joyfully and painfully waiting, i really take time to read a lot about the progress of my baby, the changes within me and of course what to prepare when expecting an additional member of our family.
Aside from the discomfort of taking pre-natal vitamins and drinking Anmum Chocolate flavor despite of being a lactose intolerant lass, i dig mostly on what my baby will be needing as new born.
Blessed enough to have an officemate who shares her expertise and experiences as a new mom through her blog site, she also ventured into baby products business.
Last November, i jotted down my Christmas wishlist and one of which is the LifeSavers Diaper/Travel Bag. It's one of her best seller and a must have for me and my better whole.
I ordered one and might have it by tomorrow through personal delivery. What do you know--the comfort and luxury of being workmates plus there is no need to pay for the shipping fee.
Here's the product specifications:
Price: Php 1,000 (with FREE changing pad and clear pouch)
Dimensions: 15” length x 12” height x 5.5” width
Features:
-Printed Canvas
-Water-resistant lining
-Five (5) outer pockets
-Six (6) inside pockets
-YKK zipper closure
-Adjustable Cotton Strap with shoulder pad
It's to die for. I love the colors, it's both chic and posh, the design, size and pocket organizers. Here's my pick:
Can't wait to finally use it, but for the mean time, i'll put stuffs that i and my baby will be needing during the day of my delivery.
For more info about the other Manila Baby Shop Products:
Manila Baby Shop: http://manilababyshop.multiply.com/
Neva's Blog Site: http://manilamommy.com/
Aside from the discomfort of taking pre-natal vitamins and drinking Anmum Chocolate flavor despite of being a lactose intolerant lass, i dig mostly on what my baby will be needing as new born.
Blessed enough to have an officemate who shares her expertise and experiences as a new mom through her blog site, she also ventured into baby products business.
Last November, i jotted down my Christmas wishlist and one of which is the LifeSavers Diaper/Travel Bag. It's one of her best seller and a must have for me and my better whole.
I ordered one and might have it by tomorrow through personal delivery. What do you know--the comfort and luxury of being workmates plus there is no need to pay for the shipping fee.
Here's the product specifications:
Price: Php 1,000 (with FREE changing pad and clear pouch)
Dimensions: 15” length x 12” height x 5.5” width
Features:
-Printed Canvas
-Water-resistant lining
-Five (5) outer pockets
-Six (6) inside pockets
-YKK zipper closure
-Adjustable Cotton Strap with shoulder pad
It's to die for. I love the colors, it's both chic and posh, the design, size and pocket organizers. Here's my pick:
Can't wait to finally use it, but for the mean time, i'll put stuffs that i and my baby will be needing during the day of my delivery.
For more info about the other Manila Baby Shop Products:
Manila Baby Shop: http://manilababyshop.multiply.com/
Neva's Blog Site: http://manilamommy.com/
Major Major Decision
As i made my vow to the Lord to be a loving help mate to my one and only, i never knew that it involved major life-changing decisions.
I still work in Manila and he is based in our home town in Mindanao, and i know that God does not favor long distance relationship specially if we have just been married for 3 months. My better whole requested me to resign from my company, sell all my beloved stuffs which i have acquired since 2007 and moved back to him. We've been away from each other since 2005 but it's totally different now that we are one and i am expecting.
I love my independence, more so the cosmopolitan lifestyle, my circle of friends here in Mega Manila and the church to which i am highly-indebted of my spiritual growth and maturity. All of these are painful to give up in the name of love.
As i ponder my options on what to become when i resign, i am faced with uncertainties, worries and doubts. But i trust the Lord with all my heart and soul, that submitting to my husband is and will always be the best for the two of us.
I am still praying for discernment of God's will and right timing to discuss things with my Manager and HR but i am also preparing my heart, my soul and my stuffs if ever i will really and finally leave.
It is my heart's desire to be granted approval to work from home with pay and file maternity leave so i can still avail my maternity benefits and afterwards tender my resignation. It would help us a lot-financially if i can still exercise my benefits since all our savings were already consumed.
Sigh! No regrets, no turning back, at a cross road but i have finally made up my mind which way to go..May the living God, hear my heart and if it is His will, so be it.
I still work in Manila and he is based in our home town in Mindanao, and i know that God does not favor long distance relationship specially if we have just been married for 3 months. My better whole requested me to resign from my company, sell all my beloved stuffs which i have acquired since 2007 and moved back to him. We've been away from each other since 2005 but it's totally different now that we are one and i am expecting.
I love my independence, more so the cosmopolitan lifestyle, my circle of friends here in Mega Manila and the church to which i am highly-indebted of my spiritual growth and maturity. All of these are painful to give up in the name of love.
As i ponder my options on what to become when i resign, i am faced with uncertainties, worries and doubts. But i trust the Lord with all my heart and soul, that submitting to my husband is and will always be the best for the two of us.
I am still praying for discernment of God's will and right timing to discuss things with my Manager and HR but i am also preparing my heart, my soul and my stuffs if ever i will really and finally leave.
It is my heart's desire to be granted approval to work from home with pay and file maternity leave so i can still avail my maternity benefits and afterwards tender my resignation. It would help us a lot-financially if i can still exercise my benefits since all our savings were already consumed.
Sigh! No regrets, no turning back, at a cross road but i have finally made up my mind which way to go..May the living God, hear my heart and if it is His will, so be it.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Highlights of my 2010
Our company recently migrated all computer software to Windows 7 program and all sites were put to default based on Hong Kong language and site thus i wasn't able to write my thoughts here.
2010 ended with a bang and i was so blessed to share the special holidays moment with my one and only.
I am thankful for the following great things that shaped and molded me as a person last 2010:
1. Engagement Party and formal entreaty between me and my husband's family
2. Spent hearts day with my fiancee at a Hot Air Balloon Festival (our first)
3. Completed the 7 weeks Pre-marital Counselling with my then fiancee
4. Spent my 25th birthday celebration at home after 9 long years and blessed enough to have my dad with us which started to missed my natal day since i was 4 years old.
5. Completed the Glorious Hope Recovery Program
6. Attended the much anticipated Secrets of the Vine Retreat
7. Completed my pledge for the Building Fund
8. Married finally to my boyfriend of 4 years and 10 months
9. Delighted by the news of expecting a baby- my precious gift from God
10.Experienced breath-taking views at Anawangin in Zambales
11.Had a great time with my family for a one week vacation here in Mega Manila
12. Above all, known my God deeper, hungered more for Intimacy with Him, favored, blessed, granted mercy, forgiveness and healing.--never ending pursuit of righteousness and holiness.
My life back in 2010 were all because of my One True God--my Abba Father..
To Him be the glory, honor, power and praise.
2010 ended with a bang and i was so blessed to share the special holidays moment with my one and only.
I am thankful for the following great things that shaped and molded me as a person last 2010:
1. Engagement Party and formal entreaty between me and my husband's family
2. Spent hearts day with my fiancee at a Hot Air Balloon Festival (our first)
3. Completed the 7 weeks Pre-marital Counselling with my then fiancee
4. Spent my 25th birthday celebration at home after 9 long years and blessed enough to have my dad with us which started to missed my natal day since i was 4 years old.
5. Completed the Glorious Hope Recovery Program
6. Attended the much anticipated Secrets of the Vine Retreat
7. Completed my pledge for the Building Fund
8. Married finally to my boyfriend of 4 years and 10 months
9. Delighted by the news of expecting a baby- my precious gift from God
10.Experienced breath-taking views at Anawangin in Zambales
11.Had a great time with my family for a one week vacation here in Mega Manila
12. Above all, known my God deeper, hungered more for Intimacy with Him, favored, blessed, granted mercy, forgiveness and healing.--never ending pursuit of righteousness and holiness.
My life back in 2010 were all because of my One True God--my Abba Father..
To Him be the glory, honor, power and praise.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Owe Nothing But Love
As i have mentioned on my previous blog, my priorities have changed the day i knew i was pregnant. I am blessed to have a husband who knows how to manage his finances well but we are extremely opposite.
It has been two months since we got married, i got sick and was hospitalized weeks after the wedding and now i am carrying my precious little one. Our relationship is now being tested on the aspect of through sickness and health and for richer or poorer.
Hospital Bills, Medications and pre-natal supplements are no joke. They come in huge prices and as newly weds, we are now financially dried up. But in everything give thanks. I thank the Lord for this opportunity to know my husband deeper in terms of handling finances, making decisions, trusting each other, helping each other and trusting the Lord. He also became my instant caregiver, cook and patient nurse.
I have seen my family and relatives in serious debt and i am praying that i will not make it as a habit or lifestyle. I remember one passage in the Bible that talks about being in debt.
Romans 13:8
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.
At present, my husband and i are facing insurmountable debt, i mean over due credit card bills and we are hoping and praying that in three months time we would be able to fulfill our financial obligations and cut or permanently terminate of our credit card services.
Having debts means having no peace of mind and i tend to worry all the time.
But i trust God, and i trust my husband as well.
I don't use my credit card anymore and vowed to pay in cash for all my transactions, i have also started saving for future emergencies. I want to be the person who can help others or give to the needy and not the one being helped.
I am God's steward on finances and so i must become one.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Christmas Wishlist
A lot has changed the day i found out that i am going to be a mother.
I am now more conscious of what i eat, how i dress up, where i go, how i spend my weekends and breaks, my expenses and priorities.
This Christmas i only want five things but not for me, it's for the little baby whom i am so blessed to received from my Almighty God.
Aside from having a baby, i know it is a huge responsibility and ministry on how i will nurture, care, love and protect my precious child. The most important thing is, how will my motherhood reflect Christ in me.
So here goes my list..not just wants but needs:-)
1. Life Saver/ Diaper Bag
2. Avent Starter Kit
3. Avent Breast Pump Kit
4. Avent Sterilizer
5. Convertible Baby Crib
*thinking of posting this link to my husband's Facebook Account... (smiling Sheepishly)
Source for Image: http://blog.timesunion.com/kristi/27197/ff-i-wish-i-may-i-wish-i-might/
Friday, April 30, 2010
Loosing Patience
I tend to be impatient even with little things now a days. Not long ago, i can still enjoy and have fun while waiting and not loosing my patience at all.
Whenever i wait in long lines, i would keep myself busy by reading things within my sight or playing games on my mobile phone. Whenever i would wait for someone and even if it would take longer than an hour or two, reading books or sending SMS would keep away my idle time. Whenever i am in dire need of answers from God, i would still pray joyfully and with gladness in my heart. There is always joy in waiting.
People do change, and not always for the better. I am now becoming an impatient and control freak. Lately, training a new hire seemed impossible for me not to loose my patience. Simple and basic instructions or procedures are asked repeatedly. I might say, simple things are sometimes the most complicated things to understand and follow. Learning fundamentals or the foundation of a one element or area of learning would aid any person when faced by cerebrally challenging situations. Once grounded on the basic tenets, it would after all make the job easier and less mind-boggling.
I was reminded by a verse in the Bible found on 1 Corinthians 13:4 which says" Love is patient, love is kind".
This is also backed strongly by this straight to the heart quote:
"When tempted to lose patience with someone, stop and think how patient God has been with you".
True enough, i must say, i have to be patient at all times. And when tempted, i have to put my feet on that person's shoes and view it on God's perspective.
Whenever i wait in long lines, i would keep myself busy by reading things within my sight or playing games on my mobile phone. Whenever i would wait for someone and even if it would take longer than an hour or two, reading books or sending SMS would keep away my idle time. Whenever i am in dire need of answers from God, i would still pray joyfully and with gladness in my heart. There is always joy in waiting.
People do change, and not always for the better. I am now becoming an impatient and control freak. Lately, training a new hire seemed impossible for me not to loose my patience. Simple and basic instructions or procedures are asked repeatedly. I might say, simple things are sometimes the most complicated things to understand and follow. Learning fundamentals or the foundation of a one element or area of learning would aid any person when faced by cerebrally challenging situations. Once grounded on the basic tenets, it would after all make the job easier and less mind-boggling.
I was reminded by a verse in the Bible found on 1 Corinthians 13:4 which says" Love is patient, love is kind".
This is also backed strongly by this straight to the heart quote:
"When tempted to lose patience with someone, stop and think how patient God has been with you".
True enough, i must say, i have to be patient at all times. And when tempted, i have to put my feet on that person's shoes and view it on God's perspective.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
The "F" word
I am not fond of cursing or using an irreverent language much more of directing it to someone. Profanity as a form of expression is and will never be glorifying to God. Earlier today, a colleague has just uttered that magic word directly to me. I must admit it bruised my heart and ego. Such abusive behavior or impolite expression should never be tolerated. I smiled after hearing the word yet as i turned my back away from her, i felt humiliated and crushed in Spirit. What is it of me that makes people around me treat that way? I remember the Law of Garbage trucks that people are carrying emotional garbages and unconsciously dumps them to people randomly. I do not have control on her behavior and with the situation but certainly has on how i should respond to what had just transpired.
What does the Bible Say about cursing or wrong use of speech? Here are the following verses that reminds me of the purpose of my tongue:
James 3:9-12
9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. 11Can both fresh water and salt[a] water flow from the same spring? 12My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
Luke 6:26-27
26Woe to you when all men speak well of you,
for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets.
27"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
Romans 12:14
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.
Romans 12:17-21
17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"[a]says the Lord. 20On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[b] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
How then should i respond? The Lord said that i should bless those who curse me. I know it's one tough act to make but thy will be done, not mine.
My prayer:
Lord, may you take the pain away from me and instead be joyful that it's not I who cursed but the one being cursed. Help me to forgive and forget and show kindness and love to that person at all times. I humbly bow before you and seek comfort and healing and that you may bless that person. In Jesus mighty name. AMEN.
What does the Bible Say about cursing or wrong use of speech? Here are the following verses that reminds me of the purpose of my tongue:
James 3:9-12
9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. 11Can both fresh water and salt[a] water flow from the same spring? 12My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
Luke 6:26-27
26Woe to you when all men speak well of you,
for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets.
27"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,
Romans 12:14
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.
Romans 12:17-21
17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"[a]says the Lord. 20On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."[b] 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
How then should i respond? The Lord said that i should bless those who curse me. I know it's one tough act to make but thy will be done, not mine.
My prayer:
Lord, may you take the pain away from me and instead be joyful that it's not I who cursed but the one being cursed. Help me to forgive and forget and show kindness and love to that person at all times. I humbly bow before you and seek comfort and healing and that you may bless that person. In Jesus mighty name. AMEN.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Defiance
Typical day starts with selfishness and ends with self-centeredness. My life is now in chaos and i don't even know how to get myself back on track. I envy those who are in the ministry and serving the Lord for He watches over them. I was once passionate and on fire but because i choose to be a carnal Christian then i am now without peace and in distress. Guilt has overshadowed me. I tried to go back in God's loving arms but to no avail. My quiet time and prayer time is inconsistent and i still have the guts to ask for His blessings. No wonder God doesn't answer me. My intentionally contemptuous behavior has separated me from God.
I remember this passage from Hebrews 10: 26-27
"If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God."
This is the truth and I am totally devastated by what i have become these past few days. I would practically be ashamed if God will let me watch the flashbacks in my life. There is nothing worth watching for. My life right now can be best described in one word: SINFUL.
I remember this passage from Hebrews 10: 26-27
"If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God."
This is the truth and I am totally devastated by what i have become these past few days. I would practically be ashamed if God will let me watch the flashbacks in my life. There is nothing worth watching for. My life right now can be best described in one word: SINFUL.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Rekindled Romance
After almost 7 months of playing with fire, the damsel in distress has found her way back into the arms of her long lost knight in shining armor. A heart-to-heart talk paved the way for both of us to reconsider our true feelings for each other. No more lies and no more pretensions. Mr. admitted that while he was into two relationships at the same time, he was still thinking of me. I am not flattered with his revelation, i felt cheated and at the same time i felt sorry for the two whom he had for his convenience. Talking about casual relationship with benefits. Enough said, i am glad that my heart has found it's way home.
Started my year not so right.
I haven't taken any time to blog about anything in particular. My last entry was in 2009 and so much has happened on the first quarter of 2010. I started my year not so right, doing things that are really against the will of God. My habitual sins has once again managed to overtake me. The enemy must have been rejoicing with my downfall. To make matters worst, i am conscious that what i did was wrong. My incomprehensible self-centered attitude and lacking in humility adds to my long list of a-must-transformed addictions. The once soulful me is now trying to find one. I am in desperate need of God's help, though i know i have made vows and promises to live a life worthy of His name yet i constantly and consistently defy His word. The life i live now is in contrast to what the Lord has commanded me. What have i done to God's love and grace?
Monday, September 28, 2009
Strong Enough by Stacie Orrico
(sharing this beautiful song----and remembering Job's ordeals and how God has been faithful to Him; His love, power and grace! I am so excited on what God has for me..and that i may overcome this battle like an Eagle soaring high in the sky... God is often more concerned about our response to the problem than He is in removing the problem. Psalm 25:15 " My eyes are ever on the Lord, for only He will release my feet from the snare".)
Strong Enough
As I rest against this cold hard wall, will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
Will my weakness fall and and now make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again
Almost Lover
(I hope I could sing this song SOON.. and I am looking forward to that day… that the wounds has been healed, only scars are visible..the battle has been won.. yeba!) God is faithful… He won’t give me what I can’t bear..mushy!!!
Almost Lover
(A Fine Frenzy)
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Almost Lover
(A Fine Frenzy)
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no
I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
"My heart sings praises"
God's unfailing love and faithfulness never fails to enfold me.
Song Name: My Heart Sings Praises
Artist Name: Hillsongs
Album: Hills Praise
Songwriter(s): Russell Fragar
Release Date: January 1, 1997
Label: Hillsongs Australia
My heart sings praises
Each time I say Your name
This love is deeper
Than simple words can say
You go before me
You make a perfect way
My one desire
Is to give You perfect praise
In my heart
You are the power
In my night
Never failing light
With every breath that I take
I'll declare the things You've done
In my mind
Mighty Overcomer
In my soul
The reason why
In my life
You are the fire that calls me on
http://www.lyricsdownload.com/australia-hillsongs-my-heart-sings-praises-lyrics.html
Monday, June 22, 2009
Too tempting to ignore!
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
1 Corinthians 10:13
Lord, if it is not your will please take away these feelings I am having right now. Help me to guard my heart, my mind and my actions so as not to cause other people to stumble or be a source of pain to them. Help me to be strong enough to resist this temptation and instead focus on the things that would glorify You alone.
You alone knows what is inside my heart and may Your almighty hand cleansed me from unrighteousness and impure thoughts.
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